Why Support Feel Memory


Memories…the key to the human experience, is a mystery that has fascinated scientists, writers and artists for centuries and one that we continue to explore for better understanding. Memory is the story we tell of how we become who we are.  Scientific research shows that we can use the dynamic nature of memory to unshackle ourselves from our pasts.  When we reshape our memories, we can change who we are and open up to wider possibilities of who we might become.


Three Daughters, Three Quests, Three Legacies


Three daughters, haunted by their parents hidden pasts, use the power of memory and the wonder of imagination to come to terms with their losses.

The earth shatters for Victoria when she is 4 years old and her father comes home on Mother’s Day and reveals that he is gay and HIV positive. He kills himself 2 days before her 11th birthday. At age 23, Victoria has been carrying her father with her for years: “and I couldn’t bear that weight anymore. If I didn’t find a way to say goodbye to my dad, I would never be able to say hello to the rest of my life.”

At age 10, Rebekah discovers her mother had two brothers and a mother who were murdered in the Holocaust. But it’s as if “I had opened the door to this room that I wasn't supposed to enter.” Years later when her mother is dying of cancer, she tells stories of hiding from the nazis. Rebekah struggles to reconcile the different versions of her mother: “There’s a sense of unreality that this person who had a certain kind of a life in New York City married to my father, with her three kids and her coffee cup in the morning could have lived through such traumatic circumstances. Most of the people that she loved died in terrifying circumstances. I just couldn't wrap my mind around it.”

Karen believes her alcoholic father, a World War II veteran with PTSD, never loved her. When he dies and she has to write for his memorial she realizes “every thought I had, every memory I had of my Dad was painful and disappointment.”  She explores his experience in the Battle of the Bulge, eventually connecting his experience on the battlefield " at age 17 fighting for his life," with her own on a football field in Michigan at age 17, "fighting for his love."


Why Support This Project


Remembering is an experience that we hold as deeply private and individual. FEEL MEMORY breaks us out of our isolated experiences through dynamic  storytelling informed by the latest science of memory, told in an original painterly - cinematic language. Bringing this immersive narrative to the screen includes the making of 50,0000 painting stills, interviews, editing, enactments, music, sound design and travel to Michigan, Sacramento, Stockholm, London and New York. We appreciate each and every contribution to this timely and timeless project.


VICTORIA LOUSTALOT is author of the books, This Is How You Say Goodbye; A Daughter’s Memoir, Living Like Audrey, and Future Perfect. She has written for the The New York Times, The New Yorker online, The Onion, Women’s Wear Daily, and Publishers Weekly. She earned her BA and her MFA from Columbia University.


KAREN JONES first told a short version of her story on National Public Radio’s, The Moth Story on the theme “Forgiven”. She is an Occupational Therapist and the author of the blog See Our Soldier, A Chronicle of Healing.


REBEKAH GROSS, MD grew up in New York City and is a graduate of Stanford University and the Yale University School Of Medicine.



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